Does God have a plan for my life?

I passed a billboard the other day that said "Does God have a plan for my life?" To be honest, I've never spent too much time thinking about this question. I have just kind of lived life and tried to be a good person without thinking I have been headed in any particular direction. All that has changed. Looking back at this adoption, and my life, I realize that God does indeed have a plan, a big one. I believe this entire thing, from years and years ago has been His plan and His doing. As far back as finding a wonderful man to share my life with who would be willing to take on such a life changing event. Then there was the kindergarten class that I'm sure He hand picked for me to soften my heart to the needs of others. There was the growing of my faith the last few years that resulted in me listening to a Christian radio station (which I never would have done a few years ago) where I heard about Lysa Tirkirst (sp?) and her adoption journey. And of course there were the many "signs" He gave me to lead me in this direction (which my friend Rhonda has witnessed with me on many occasion). And, even though I tried to talk myself out of it, God would not let this idea of adoption leave my thoughts, ever.

And now, as we struggle with the news about Lucas' physical problems, I realize God made sure we had accepted our referral months before learning of these problems. He did this so that we would fall in love with our boy and realize that he was meant to be ours. Honestly, if all these problems were in the initial report, before we loved him, I'm sure we would have thought twice about accepting the referral, or at least asked many more questions. God knows how best to let our lives unfold, that's for sure.

God does have a plan for my life and that is being a mom to Lucas. I do not yet know why, but I know it is meant to be. This boy is going to do great things one day, I just know it.